No Ni Saku Hana No You Ni

so now that my older sister has moved back in (FML) i was in my room…now i have to share my very small room much much smaller than my older place…with her +nephew and my lil sis. just when i was liking my room i can’t even walk or talk on the phone in my room i have to go somewhere..i really hate how my older sister decided while i was at work to rearrange my room she took out my computer desk to make room for her things…i really hate how everyone at home has a low disregard for my things…i worked really really hard to buy everything i have..my lap top…my PC which my dad pretty much ruined. I know its just material things but i just hate how they treat me like im nothing..like im insignificant how i feel doesn’t matter…i felt like crying yesterday…i felt so stressed i feel like running away. i really do…and i really hate how people say shit about me when they don’t even know..sure i blog online but its just a tiny bit of my life…you have no idea what i went threw growing or what i have to go threw everyday..my blogs don’t even show that side of my life..and for people to judge me…and assume shit…is so stupid and ignorant.

but yeah my post is about Gackt..last night my older sister comes into my room i was on my lap top on tumblr listeng to this song:

her: she starts laughing..and said “Why are you listening to funeral music?”

me: * i was soo mad* It isn’t funeral music

her: well it sounds like it..its sounds like the kind of music they will play at one

i just ignored her and sang along to my gackt song and replayed it over n over again.  She doesn’t understand my music that i love so much she doesn’t understand the meaning and emotion behind gackt’s songs. only my  lil sister understands it. My older sister is more of a reggaeton hip hop person..me and my lil sis don’t listen to that much mostly jrock and kpop. My family thinks were weird lulz.

i really love the lyrics to this song…my fave part…

Someday, when the time comes
to look back down the path you’ve walked
I want you to have grown stronger and have not given up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
One of these days,
we’ll meet here again, so until that day…
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
like the flowers that bloom in the field
I want you to grow strong and never give up,
I want you to flourish…